Dust Clears

It’s a one of those days. Where all stuff comes together. You talk to your bestie in Holland, you reminisce, think everything through and again there is just one conclusion: all just freakin’ works. I am content and happy in my general state of mind. My dust is clearing.

Driving through the outskirts of Denpasar with Clean Bandit’s “Dust Clears” pumping through my headphones and it just gives me goose bumps. I live the life I want. It is not perfect yet but hey I know that it will never will. I can only try to make it as perfect as I deserve it to be. Life has thrown some serious stuff (aka shit) at me, I am fighting to make it all work, but the biggest change is that this fight is not every day anymore. And that is why this song just almost makes me cry. Sometimes it just fells as if it gets harder but, like the lyrics say, it is just because you restarted. And trust me, I totally restarted my life, my entire life. I re-boothed my systems and am learning to love my life and more importantly learn and experience to love me. Embracing the fact that I am an awesome human being, that I am pretty successful in how I want to be successful. Again, it can all be better. I could be healthier, I could be more loving to me instead of others, I could stop worrying, but in the end, I am doing a pretty good job in changing the old setting and living my life. I am healthy because I love me, because I make decisions that are good for me and because I can not be bothered about other people’s opinion. The realization that my situation was not getting anywhere back at home (again those lyrics), and that I had the courage to just pack my bags and go, see whatever happens, that is what gives me goose bumps. That you, and only you have the power to do that. That there will always be things that you want to adjust or love to see different, leave it there, it will come when it comes. For now it is pretty damn ok.

My dust is clearing and really I would love to invite you to look at your own life and see how much dust is still hanging over there that needs to start moving into another direction.

Like An Addict – An Aquaholic

It’s 3;30 pm, I am finished for today. Fuck Yeah, I think will be able to make it.  I calculate and move my way through the outskirts of Denpasar towards Uluwatu. Time flies in Bali but I am sure that it’s possible. I think I do. Come on people, move faster and don’t freak me out by honking your horn every occasion you get. My watch is checked every 10 minutes, almost home, almost home. The thought of not making it, makes me cringe., sick to my stomach, almost desperate. I need this, I really need and want this. And there it is, that last corner before I enter the gate to my house. I grab my stuff and head down. 5 more minutes and I will be ok, the craving is almost unbearable. Four more steps and I will get my fix. Before I know it,I  hit the sand and there it is. This big ocean that I can call my backyard. As soon as my board and I punch through those first waves to get out, my restlessness evaporates.

The ocean is my sanctuary. Surfing is my addiction. The sun heads down and I am surrounded by blue water and quite a bit of jelly-fish. Can’t be bothered though.I got my shot:  I got my waves, I got my salty ocean, I got myself, I am free.

Start Feeling

Emotions can be so overwhelming some times, it is actually not weird that we are almost programmed to ignore them, put them away instead of actually feeling and embracing them. The other day, I saw this hugely inspiring 2 minute video that explained pretty clearly what we actually do when we depress emotions like grief, anger & envy. It transforms grief into depression, anger into rage and envy into jealousy. And that is when we loose control. I cannot control depression, I can control grief. I can control anger but I cannot control rage. And of course envy, I can control that emotion but I cannot control jealousy.

So just ask yourself what would happen if you just let go? As all these emotions are really natural. In the end it is exactly what this short little video promotes. The key is not to stop feeling, it is to start.

Embrace Your Challenges

Back In Perspective

Enjoy the small things is what I usually try to tell myself. It seems easy, and sometimes it is, but I sure can’t make it work all the time. The funny thing though is that life always throws you in a situation to remind you how lucky you are. Today this happened again.

This morning I surfed Balangan and I really did not manage to make it work. Frustration was dominating and I almost wanted to go back in after an hour. Next to me though, there was a guy who was surfing waves with a canoe. His legs were strapped straight on the board and I thought: How is it possible that he does not cramp up in this position?”. So I asked him. He told me that he was paralyzed from the waist down because of an accident and this was the only way how he could still enjoy the waves. His answer overwhelmed me and the thought that this guy was still enjoying these waves even though he could not literally surf them anymore, made me humble. Just that moment he had put my “miserable” session back in perspective.

This Incredible Life

It’s 6 am in the morning and I wake up to check the surf. When I arrive at the look-out and see these waves rolling in, I smile and think “I am one freakin’ lucky girl”. All things are really coming together on this island and it just makes me grin from ear to ear.

To be honest, I do not even know where to start if it comes down to how much I really belong here at this point in my life. Work-wise things are rolling and if it all works out it will be awesome and completely up my alley. From a surf perspective, I keep progressing, proper cut-backs and bottom turns are getting better and better and I surf bigger waves than I could dream of in the past. And next to these 2, I meet all these insanely inspiring, funny, kind, wanderlust people that make my stay in Bali complete. The road is not easy all the time and I do get confronted with insecurities that surface once in a while, but life over here just makes digesting them easier. Yep, I live a freakin’ incredible life and I am more than proud that I have myself to thank for it.

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Tuesday Tunes – In Your Arms

Chef’Special has created some amazing music and In Your Arms is one of their latest ones. It is one of those songs that will make you smile even though the copy is not that happy. It’s genuine, profound and will relate to anyone that misses someone.

Have an amazing Tuesday!!

 

Stay True To You

A couple of years back, one of us decided to take a tattoo. A tattoo that tells and reminds us that we should always be true to who you are. It is written in Dutch and literally it says: “I love myself”. Questions are asked whether we really need to remind us of that, and we think we do. Life can get distracting. Whether it is at work in the office, or even in the ocean, during a yoga session or at a party. You can be distracted by external factors and ask more from yourself than YOU actually want or need at that moment.

We feel that we should always follow our heart, stay true to our own paths and choices…stay true to ourselves.

 

 

 

 

Life is too short to Wait…Let’s enjoy it!!